Wait

I am not a patient person. When I want something, I know I want it and I want it now. Some say you get patient with age, as you’re more experienced, you’ve gained some life wisdom and you’ve learned. Maybe I am an exception or am just being childish, still my patience is definitely one of my biggest weaknesses.

But why am I talking about patience and waiting?

Last couple of weeks were truly a nightmare. Between my friends’ problems that I’ve been listening about, I couldn’t find time for myself. And as I helped them the best I could and now I have plenty of time to think about my things, my mind is getting blown and I am getting tired. And I thought listening to my friends complaining and seeking for advice, a piece of Anna’s Wisdom, was annoying and tirinig and destroying me mentally. Hell no. This, what is happening now, is way worse.

So you have to understand I am in some kind of sinusoid of emotions and thoughts. Swinging from huge excitement to frustration.

 

This year, so far, has been the year of change. I redefined my life goals, created a plan for myself and, most important, started to take a moment when it’s there. I feel so lucky. Starting from next week, every month there is something I look forward to. And as I lay down in my bed thinking about all those situations that happened to me during the day, the thought of exciting times coming actually smashed me. Isn’t that what life is about? Making plans or not making plans at all but doing things that make you want to invent a time machine to experience it now, at this right moment? I am so excited that if I could, I’d used it and travel in time to make it all happen faster and make me feel happier and fullfilled. I feel blessed with all the people around me, with the stories we share, with this bunch of you here, reading my thoughts. And I feel like my heart is going to pop out of my chest, that’s how excited I am for the next couple of months.

I am impatient. I want all my plans to work out now. But I have to learn to wait for it. And try not to die because of excitement.

What I’m working on now is my own business. I may actually post something about my ideas as business itself starts earning money. I’ve been looking for a perfect job for myself for a while now, I’ve tried a couple of things and figured out that hey, you can mix it all and simply create a job for yourself. That’s what I am doing now.

What I’m looking forward to are the trips – Vilnius in a week, Dublin in October, London in December. Still have to figure out where to go in November. But hell yes, I am excited.

 

And with all this, I can’t wait to see my people, to chat, to hang out, to party, to see them, spend more time, experience, travel.

 

Can’t wait.

Man, I have to work on my patience.

 

 

PS/ No, I haven’t been drinking. I am totally sober. It is not an alcohol talk.

Gym

Since I cannot go to gym lately, I decided to kill myself with several different activities at home.

Don’t get me wrong. I am sick, it makes the killing process way more effective. As I lack some physical activity these days and for a sick person I have shit loads of energy to spare, for obvious reasons, cause my organism decided to get a flu or whatever, I thought the greatest idea is to start all those 30 days Challenges I installed on my iPhone.

So now, even though I can barely move, I squat as if Channing Tatum was behind me. Keep up the good work!

You do the math

When you look for the definition of a hookup, what you get is most commonly a person that you had sex with. Once. A one night stand.

Not the promising start of the relation. As there is no relation at all.

 

The biggest discourse of one night stands is they don’t have equal meaning to the sides involved. Girls could lie about it but as long as you’re not fucked (well, literally, you are), let me put it this way – drunkenly unconsious, you cannot stop thinking about what-ifs.

So – for a man (usually) it’s just sex.They have this thing. Can shut down emotions and simply do their thing. Such a dedication towards sex. Never stops to amaze me.

For a woman it’s usually harder. If it’s not a drunken hookup. If that’s the case, you run out of the apartment or hotel room in a slow motion, hearing Run, Forrest, Run. Cause you wake up with You’re Pretty When I’m Drunk syndrome. That never happened to me, luckily. Or not.

I don’t do hookups. I am not a one night stand girl. That’s why my previous actions result in mindfuck and dozens of thoughts I never knew I could possibly have. In this matter I am a good girl. It takes a real effort to make me feel comfortable (or drunk) enough to make me start to even think about having sex with a stranger. I am one of those romantic chicks. But when you make me believe that every kiss is the promise of the new beggining (thank you, PS. I love you, for ruining my life), I am yours.

And there’s what happened to me this summer. Met nice people, had a great time, had sex, continued to talk, went on a trip together, had sex again, got back home, talked, and after a while it all turned so quiet. And there’s just me wondering what the f… was that. If it was anything at all.

 

Talking to my boy-friends, I have this one conclusion. Once you meet afterwards or have sex more than once, it’s not a hookup anymore. At least that’s what they say. It can be either nothing or everything. So I guess there’s not much I can do but wait for things to sort out themselves.

Isn’t it a rule that whatever happens after the one night stand is a gift, not a promise?

 

Honestly, I have no idea.

 

 

 

PS/ Good to be back to angieistheway. After years of absence, for which I am sorry.

Det är du som…

A lot of stuff is going on lately.

I am internship-ing myself and I like it. I’m also thinking a lot about my future, thinking about all the options that I have. Also I began to hate my studies more than ever before. Fancy that. Last year and I’m so close to quit. That’s what happens when you don’t like the faculty. ;)

In passing week we had this absolutely adorable commercial fest. Valentines day, Alla hjärtans dag, walentynki. The only day when a happy single doesn’t feel so happy. Why? I tell you why. Because everyone is puking rainbows.

People tend to think that when you’re single, this means you’re broken. And valentines day makes you think, that yeah, you kind of are (since you do not pick up left overs laying down on the street because you’re supposed to feel bad or lonely) and what’s worse – that no one is ever going to fix you.

That’s bad. Really. I mean, I’ve been there. Putting myself down, just because I didn’t get the rose or any other flower with a heart-shaped note. Yeah, I’ve been there. When I was in high school.

So now, as a single lady, I see how the problem has grown bigger. Kind of. As it’s said on Internet meme – wow that escalated quickly.
all the single ladies, all the single ladies, now put your hands up! We’ve been fed with all these clichés. Just drink wine, lay in bed and cry to Celine Dion or Aretha Franklin. Or Adele, Adele is good. And complain that you’re going to die alone, eaten by Alsatians. Or ask other singles where the heck is your Prince Charming. I bet he lost his horse in the forest. Or lost his mind. Or whatever.

It’s been a while now when I don’t need to bother myself with satisfying someone else’s needs. And I’m ok with it, most of the time. And I wish my single friends were ok with it either. It’s not like I believe that there is some kind of Bigger Plan, but I think that you know the right person when you see one. So why putting myself into relation-shit just to satisfy my entourage? I’m too old for this ;)

Piece of advice, obvious one, everyone feel it in their guts- just take your time. Just because it, love, happens to people around you, doesn’t mean you’re ready for it.

And one more thing. For couple of weeks I’ve been thinking a lot about any kinds of relations. And I see a sad tendency – to complain on others being stupid just because, well, he never calls back, while being mean and unkind first place. So I started to think – maybe it’s not him who’s dumb, maybe it’s you who’s blind?

For the end, a quote from Slash’s song:

we’re all gonna die, so lets be nice

Have a nice weekend!
Ha det jättebra!

hur vi älskar svenska killar!

A week ago I started celebrating my tomorrow birthday. It was a good start, in Stockholm, with a good Batman’s company. :)

Step by step, how I planned our Stockholm-trip!

At first, I wanted us to go there exactly on my birthday but since I’m going to Belgrade this month as well I decided to go to Stockholm a little before I get old ;) So me and Batman (don’t ask why, just accept it :) ). went to Stockholm by the end of September to come back to Poland on first day of October, so I could prepare my liver for birthday celebration :).

Step 1: find a cheap flight.

A month before, I booked the tickets with Ryanair. With MasterCard pre-paid, it’s booking fee-free, I’m a lucky girl to have one. The best way to find the cheapest flights of Ryanair is to check their website ofc. Though you can always use skyscanner or whatever website you’re used to use for this matter.

Step 2: find a cheap hotel/hostel/ try couch-surfing or visit a friend

I tried first two options and ofc the last one :)

If you prefer to spend more cash on visiting and parties and you are not a ‘hostel’ person, I recommend you Connect Hotel City. The price of the room for one person including breakfast is quite low considering high standard of the room (I’d give it 4stars, I think) and localisation- Kungsholmen, really close to Fridhemsplan T-bana and that is not more than 15min from T-centralen if I’m right.
If I’m going to Stockholm, that’s where I usually stay. Except one time I lived at my friends’ place in Södertälje and my last trip with Batman when we stayed in Acco Hostel. I found it on booking.com but I recommend to do the reservation through their website- it’s cheaper. Few words about it? Well, first and most of all it’s affordable for students.That’s the biggest advantage of it after its localisation. Rooms are generally clean (depends on how messy you are :) ), you have free Internet access and if you don’t travel with your own laptop, you can use one at the lobby. Acco Hostel is the online-check in kind of a hostel. This means no one is actually checking if you should be there or not. Surprisingly it works but I think it’s because of the cameras at the lobby monitoring what’s going on :) The standard of the room is ok, nothing really special, just IKEA (<3) furnitures. BUT I have to admit that beds were EXTREMELY uncomfortable esspecially for a drunk young lady :). Anyways we were not in Stockholm to spend our days in hostel, no. The hostel is located in Södermalm, next to Hornsgatan, 5min walking from Zinkensdamm T-bana. Actually everything was in the walking-distance. Up to 1hour (slowly!) walking to Gamla Stan, 30min to Medborgarplatsen where we partied a lot :) I couldn’t imagine a better place for us to stay!

Step 3: check out the parties

I used Songkick, for I have it synchronised with my Spotify account and it shows me upcoming events with my favs. If you stay in Södermalm, you can go to Medborgarplatsen, also called Medis since it sounds more friendly and waaay shorter than Medbor-pf-blA-THR-smth :) There will always be an opened bar! I personally love Debaser (Medis and Slussen, both are really nice). Also been in Bara Bistro Bar. Oh, and for the cheapest beer in Stockholm go to Hellströms Bar & Restaurang. Generally no matter where you go, there will be people to hang out with. Sweds are friendly and open-minded. In general, not only when they’ve drunk too much :) They are so nice and men are good looking :3
Step 4: Take a Stockholm-freak with you to organise it all for you

Not everyone has this luck to have a friend so deeply in love with Stockholm as me :) But if you do, use this. It’s way cheaper to search for information on swedish websites. And they will know some stuff you wouldn’t find on the internet as well.

Step 5: Get lost in the city and take pictures

In any way. Just get lost. Mix directions, skip few bus stops, walk, look around. The city is lovely anytime, all the time.

Few pictures from Stockholms trip below:This way please :)

Tyska kyrkan at night.

View from Djurgårdsbron.

Katarinavagen.

My beloved Gamla Stan.

All for now! :)

ha det bra!

ihola!

The second part of the ‘spanish’ post. Here come the pictures!

 

Our trip started in PolskiBus. Some men like to see world burn.

My brother got sleepy way faster than me.Ice-cream in Italy. Only thing I remember ;)

My brother’s best picture. :D

I just love the view! Jardi Botanic Marimutra.

It was windy, you know.Sky is the limit.Park GuellCamp Nou. Been there, done that.

I can see your trueeeee coloooouuursssss! :)Say whaaaat? I’m a hamster. And this green thing was delicious! kiwi smoothie <3The show was amazing. Quality of the pic sucks, too much water in the air.Hello Kitty chocolate! Eat that! :D And it had freakin’ tattoos! :DI like this picture. For the colours.

 

 

That’s all I picked for you. Soon another post about my travels. Stockholm again, this time I’m not going there alone but with a friend :) I hope she’ll like the city as much as I do. Expect pictures. We’re also going to visit some places I’ve never been to. Should be interesting :) How I miss Stockholm!

PNR, Social Change, Iran and integration

If you combine them all, they will give you topics and proposals to be discussed on this years BEUM.

Have you ever heard about it?

Yes? Good, now go and apply, you lazy ass, since you know how awesome it is! :)

No? Let me tell you few words about it then!

BEUM – Belgrade Model European Union is a project that allows you to learn by do about EU institutions operation. That doesn’t mean you have to be a EU freak to attend. But if you’re willing to get the knowledge about EU procedures or are interested in politics or your biggest dream is to work as a lobbyst or any other reasons like ‘I like travelling!’ or ‘Let’s meet new interesting people!’ or ‘Why not drinking serbian dark beer in Serbia, isn’t it a wonderful idea after all?’, you should apply for BEUM. Any motivation is good, as a BEUM Team Member I can assure you that we go through every application and make our choices carefully, for the simulation’s sake :)

What’s the best way to experience the most from the new city? Except hours spent on walking and getting lost in the streets :)

Well, the answer is simple- to live and work there. BEUM gives you the opportunity to experience Belgrade to the fullest. During the day you work in the city centre. And by work, I mean work, you get a role to play and if you’re a little ambitious- you will play it good. Girls wearing cocktail dresses and high heels, boys in suits, every single person looks classy. We’re young, we have the potential, the knowledge, the future is ours. At night we transform. Into party animals ready for a club crawl, for a Belgrade’s nightlife. Prepare, because it’s legen…wait for it… dary!

What I liked the most in last years simulation was the social part- club crawling! What I loved- the atmosphere and the people I met. Some of them became my good reliable friends.

A lot of people look for international experience, I wish everyone could be a part of such a wonderful project. If you are interested, apply. You have time till 15.09, click here.

Be a part of my Journalists Team, become a perfect public speaker in European Parliament, improve your debating skills in European Council, become a member of Council of the EU or try lobbying.

The choice is yours. And you’re invited to be a part of BEUM community.